Living with Tourette's

I have Tourette's Syndrome . That is a simple fact. What's not a simple thing is living with Tourette's. It made college life for me hard. I was afraid to set in a class room full of people. I have both and oral and a physical. The physical are not quite so bad sometimes, but the oral is ALWAYS bad, even when it's not. Nothing makes you feel like a fool quite like setting in the middle of a lit class and all of a sudden you go "UNNNHNNA" really loud, and than everyone looks at you like you are crazy and moves away from you. Though to make this a bit easier on myself, and so that my professors don't think I am trying to be disruptive, I have started telling them the first day of class that I have Tourette's.

I will say though, that having Tourette's is not all bad. My friends think my tics are funny. Yes, if people I don't know laugh at my Tourette's I feel upset or get pissed, but my friends, they make me feel like my Tourette's makes me special, and they show me why it's funny. Some times I make really funny sounds, like one time, I went "OMMMM NOMMMMM NOMMMM" and sometimes my physical tics make it look like I am dancing.

Well, that is the just of it. If you have any questions, ask me on my tumbler :)

Getting to know Sabrina

There will not be a music blog this week. I only like to do the research for my music blogs when I am alone. I don't like to bother my room mates with music that they may feel sucks.

Instead today you get to find out some interesting facts about me. I am going to give you 10 (ten) facts about me, that you may or may not know.

1.) My full name is Mary Sabrina Elmore

2.) I was born January 1st 1987

3.) My home town is Baxley Georgia

4.) I have Tourette's Syndrome

5.) I am a HUGE fan of My Little Pony Friendship is Magic

6.) My favorite pony from MLP:FiM is Pinky Pie

7.) The pony I am most like (according to my friends) From MLP:FiM is Derpy Hooves. ( because of my Tourette's)

8.) I HATE spiders.

9.) I like cats more than dogs

10.) I love to crochet

Well, that's it. 10 (ten) facts about me.

Music I am feeling this week. (country music week)

Song I play when I am pissed: Truth is, I don't really have a country song that I can play when I am pissed. There are not a lot of really angry country songs.

Songs I forgot I loved: "Alcohol" By: Brad Paisley

"It's your love" By: Tim McGraw

"Strawberry Wine" By: Deana Carter

My love of country music is something I like to keep quite, but its true, I really love it. Mostly the ones that were big when I was a teen.

Song that makes me feel like a woman: "Redneck Woman" By: Gretchen Wilson

I know in my heart I can be a bit of a redneck woman. I can try to hide it and cover it up, but it is a part of me. Just like goth and nerd are parts of me

Songs that make me sad: "Whiskey Lullaby" By: Brad Paisley

Yes, this is the second song on this weeks list by Brad Paisley. Truth is, there are a lot of country songs that make me sad, for the same reason that this one makes me sad. It reminds me of my mom. This one though...it makes me think of my mom, and my dad. Though he did not really die when she did, I know a part of him did. Also the music video is really sad.

Top of the charts song I like: "Just a Kiss" By: Lady Antebellum

I really like Lady Antebellum, though when they first came out I did not think I would.

The day I die

I tend to think a lot about death. Mainly my own. What will happen to me when I die? Not just my soul but also my body. I don't have a plot. Will I be cremated? Who will keep my ashes? If no one keeps them where will they be spread? This is what I want when I die....

Cremate me, spread my ashes in an opening in the woods someplace. Have a memorial service, with NO PREACHER! This is about my life, not saving the souls of the ones I left behind. Also, I am not Christian, so that would just be fucked up to have preaching at my memorial service. There is only one song I want played...."Coming Back Down" By: Hollywood Undead. Not only do I love the song and the band, but it would also be just a great song.

I know this blog is a little sad, perhaps even dark, but that is whats on my mind today.

Music I am feeling this week.

Song I play when I am feeling pissed: "Alien" By: Your Favorite Martian.

This is the only song of his that I really love and could play every day. I can kinda relate to it. I was picked on a LOT in school. I felt like an Alien.

Songs I forgot I loved: "No Rain" By: Blind Melon

"Unbelievable" By: EMF

"I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)" By: The Proclaimers

I had forgot how much awesome music there was in the 90's.

Song that makes me feel like a woman: "I Touch Myself" By: Divinyls

Yet another song from the 90's. This song is just so......sexy. It makes me feel all sexy and stuffs.

Song that makes me sad: "One Headlight" By: The Wallflowers

I don't play this song much, even though I really love it. It's just so sad to me. Also this is just one more in the long list of songs from the 90's that I am falling in love with all over again.

Top of the charts song I like: "Rollin In The Deep" By: Adele

I feel like I cant have a list of songs I am feeling this week without picking one from the current top 40. The song is just amazing to me. Adele has an amazing voice and I she is a bigger girl, which makes me love her even more.

Thoughts for the Weekend:Some People are Stupid

What gave birth to my "Thoughts for the Weekend" this weekend is the fact that I am not able to understand why girls like Rihanna would stay with or get back with or even just stay in contact with total JERKS like Chris Brown who beat the crap out of them, or cheat on them, or just treat them like crap.

Yes, like almost 1 in 3 women, I have been in an abusive relationship at one point in my life. What I have never understood, is not staying, I understood that because I stayed a LOT longer than I should have, No what I don't understand is going back. Once you get out of the abusive relationship why the HELL would you go back? This is why I think women are stupid.

Also, I cant quite grasp why you would want to stay with some one you don't love. Some one you seem to hate so much that you would physically or psychologically abuse them. Yes, as much as I hate to admit it, I did cheat on a boyfriend once, and as much as I feel the need to defend myself and explain why I would do it in the first place, it was still wrong. Once I also got so upset at another boyfriend that I slapped him. Yet unlike most people who hit someone they love, I did not say I was sorry and beg to be forgiven. I saw the fact that I had just done something that was, not only very wrong, but that was also totally unlike me. In seeing this, I ended the relationship. How could I be with someone that had caused me to respond to him in such as way?

I get it, you cant help who you love. What I don't understand is how you can love someone that keeps hurting you. Someone that only cares about you when it suits them. That to me is why some people are stupid.

Yes, I know this is one of my longer blogs, but I feel strongly about this topic, and I feel this will not be the last blog I do about abuse.

If you or someone you love is being abused, please visit this website, and seek help....Before its too late.

March 2012

Today is the first day of March. A new month, lots of new exciting things for me to do and blog about.

I will be doing Weekend Thoughts every Saturday, sorry I did not post last weekend.

I will have a WTF of the week every week, though I do not know what day that will be on. Most likely what every day something really bugs me.

This month every day I will be posting a photo on Facebook. So that is going to be exciting.

I will also have a Horror Movie Review every Monday on my YouTube Channel.

Well that is all I have planned for the month of March right now. If I start on anything else I will let you know.