Friends???

I have had a few friends in my years of being alive. Some are good friends, some are bad friends, and some I wonder why I call them friends at all. I also know that sometimes once group of friends may not like another group of friends, but I have ALWAYS done my best to make them be nice to each other. I never want any of my friends to feel excluded just because one or two people don't like them. Why is this not true with everyone? How can you set there and watch another person dogging and being just plane rude to someone you clamed is your friend? I think that that means the time has come for everyone involved to reassess themselves. Why are you letting your friends treat each other like shit? Why are you letting your friend’s friends treat you like shit? WHY ARE YOU SUCH A FUCKING DICK??!!?? Think about all of this, let it mull around in your mind for a day or two, then decide, would you want someone to do that to you? I know I don’t.

In FL at the quiz meet. Hoping to kick some nerd butt. Will post pics on fb

I just dont understand why people do things that they know will hurt them. if you know its going to hurt......... DONT DO IT!

Ah. Unrequited love. there is nothing in the world like it. Your so happy to be in love, but you know nothing will change the fact that they dont love you.

WOW this is a first.

For the first time in a long time, I'm having a REALLY good day. I mean you would think it would be a bad day, but truth is I feel great! And I don't think there is a lot that could happen that could make my day suck..... but I'm not about to say nothing can make it suck lol, cuz every time I say that someone says of does something that pisses me off or makes me start acting like a bitch for no reason at all. Oh well, I'm not going to think about what could be going wrong, I will keep my head up and keep thinking happy thoughts. I love being happy, and though I may not be as happy as I would like, I will take advantage of it while I can.

so fucking sick of it

You know what really pisses me off? When people want you to be all excited about something they do or say, or something to do with there dumb ass video games, but the second IO do or say something about something I am interesting in, I get called dumb or told that I should not bring up random things. It hurts. It hurts that the only friends i have, i have nothing in common with. Sometimes I hate being me. I know all of my blogs have been really depressing. I have really depressed lately.

"FRIENDS" *cough cough*

You know whats crazy? Sometimes I miss having people to hang out with, but than, I get around my "friends" and someone says something that huts me and makes me cry...... why am I like this? Why cant i think the way most people do? I get defensive over nothing at all and start acting like a total bitch. I cant sing I cant act i cant dance, i cant write poems books stories or anything like that. I just feel like a waste of time space and energy sometimes. I have no clue why I am the way I am.... I hate it, and right now I hate myself.