More drama

Once again my post from lastmonth has been brought up. Now there are people, friends of mine, who has asked that there name not be placced in any of my blogs. I totaly respect that. The issue I have is with people who keep bringing the shit up. Why cant we just drop it? I said I was sorry, and trust me I am NOT one to say I'm sorry without meaning it. So to the people who have nothing better to do with there time but cause drama for me, you have a choice to make.... you can drop this whole damn thing, get over it, and act like an adult.... or you can keep looking for ways to start drama, in which case you will be doing noting but makeing yourself look like a fool, because I'm not going to waste my time dealing with your childish ways. This is all I have to say on the matter.

Bloging is what I do.

There are people, whom shall remain nameless, that have told me not to blog about them. This is in regards to my last post, talking about friends. I just reread said post, and the funny thing is, that only 2 names were given, That's my friends Amanda and Corey. The only other person whom a guess about there identity is my room mate. Her name is Zaire. I also forgot to mention my friend Daniel. Now out of respect for most people, I do not bring up there names in blogs. So people just need to calm the fuck down. Blogging is what I do to keep myself calm. Its a way for me to vent my emotions. Anyone that knows me knows I use to have an issue with cutting, and blogging, poems, and tats are the only things I can do to help me deal with the issues. Blogging helps me deal with the public issues that I'm dealing with at the moment. The issues that anyone hear about if they ask the right person. I just vent how I feel about a situation, and most of the time its just a momentary thing that I will get over later. Poems are how I deal with issues from the past, things I will NEVER talk to anyone about, EVER. Its a way to let it out, without anyone having to know that I have gone through some things that would make them view me differently. The last way I deal, tats, is my way of replacing the cutting. It was more than just a way to let emotions out, it also felt good, because no matter how much I write about in blogs or poems, or even talk about, the pain is still there, trapped inside. The physical pain helps me let that out. I'm sorry if anyone is offended by my blogs, but I'm not going to stop. I promise I will never use names, even if your not my friend, I still respect you as a human being, until you stop acting like one.

Real Friends

Sometimes I wounder what It would be like to have real friends..... I mean I have a few friends that are real, you know who you are, but I'm sick of the people that clam to be my friend but act like jerks. I mean college is hard enough with out all the drama! I'm so glad I have people like my room mate and my friends like Corey and Amanda. They are AWESOME!!! But its the people that CLAM to be my friend, but they hurt me. I know some of them care about me, and I know others are under the influence of people that will NEVER be my friend. I wanna be friends with my old friends again, but that may never happen....yeah I know it sucks.

You know what I mean?

Ok so have you ever wanted something so bad that its all you think about? Well thats what im going through right now. There is something I want more than anything in the world, but no matter what I do I cant have it, and it sucks..... its like its the one thing I am not allowed to have...EVER. I think its kinda fucked up.

Part one of True Blood season 2 VS Liveing Dead in Dalass

Now I would like to start by saying I love both the show and the Book and would never give up one for another....but with that said lets get this show on the road...... Issue with the show #1.... WTF????!!!??? I get that Lafayette Is an awsome cheatear and people would be very unhappy to see him dead, and I get that they need add some things to stretch out the storyline a bit, and Im VERY glad that Lafayette is not dead, but WTF how is BT going to get out of this mess with out killing innisent people??? I mean MaryAnne (which was not even the Manads name in the book BTW) was not even THAT big of a deal in the book but the show is building her up to be SOOOOO important. Another issue is Godric (Godfry in the book), They build him up in the show as WAY more than he is...now granted Im SOOOOOO ok with that. Godric is SEXY HOT!!! But the truth of the matter is that it is Stan was the head of the vamps in TX. And they killed HIM!!! WTF???!!!??? Well thats it for today kiddys...gotta leave some for Tue.... comment telling me what you think and fallow all the people whos Twitter links I have Provided, including mine :)

My new blog topic

well since my laptop is busted Im going to have a lot of time on my hands to blog till I can get it fixed. Starting tomarow I will be bloging ALOT!!! Now my first topic will me Book VS Show/Movie. Book/Show #1 will be True Blood season 2 VS Liveing Dead In dalass. I will post my POV of both the book and the show (which I both love) and would love for your replys!!!! well thats it for tonight my lovelys!!! TTYL

Amazing news!!!!

Im going to use my book ( well part of it ) As my essay in lit class!!!! I hope I get a good grade!!!!

Girls and Porn

Ok this is what I dont get.... Why if I, a female, enjoy looking at porn and getting off, is it wrong to say??? I mean guys are not the only ones that masturbate....girls do it too. Hell there are a lot of girls that can not get off on penatration and need to "handel" it themselves. So my question is why do women have to keep it hush hush when guys can talk about it any time?????

Chapter one Comt

Now a lot of people wounder....were Adam and Eve the first two humans? Well your half right. It was Adam and Lilith. Oh you have no clue how ofter I hear "But Lilith is never mentioned in the bible" But Ill get to that later.
So The creator started with Adam and Lilith. Both made form the land of the earth, both equals. Well Mr. Adam felt he was better than Lilith because he was more like the creator, which he called God. Now Lilith was so not into this she stood up to Adam. Of course Adam went crying to The creator. He was going to kill Lilith. I felt this was wrong. I stood up to The creator. He was not pleased. I was interfering with his creation. He had made the humans just as he had made me what right do I have to interfere with this? I just felt that it was wrong. This human loved him just as I did would he kill me too?
Well this made the creator change his mind about killing Lilith. Unfortunately he tossed me out of heaven and created a place called hell. Its not like you have read. Its just like a dark cavernous place. Its cold and lonely. Now I did not go alone. Others Believed that what he was doing was wrong. So he sent them with me. He also gave me Lilith. That is when he created Eve.


(more of chapter one tomorrow)

Chapter one

(i will be posting my book on my blog. Please dont still it I have a copywrite on it thank you)


In the beginning there was only God. Perhaps if there had been others I would be able to better explain what life was like for our maker before he created us... but i cant. There was only God.

Well needless to say this was very boring and so The creator made Space and time and from this he made the earth. At the time it was only a big ball of water and land. Not much of a place but the creator had plans. He made this ball of nothingness into earth and then he created heaven. A place of himself to live. But he did not wish to live alone.
He next created the angels. Now this is where I come intoplay sortof. Along with Micheal Azreal Gabriel Raphael And Uriel he created me. You know me by many names. He named me Lucifer but you can call my Lucie. Yes I am female. When The creator made us he started working with gender differences. He called himself Male and ones such as myself Female. Most of the angels are female. Well not the MAIN angels nooooo! The big strong "important" angels were made male like The creator. Give me a break. To tell the truth looking back I think this may have been the starting point for all of the issues that would come to head over all the ages that have since passed. Not really the main issue but it did affect things.
Now when he first made us he gave us free will and the ability to think for our selves. And we were all very happy. That is until he created those dumb humans ugh.

(more to come tomorrow)

Playing games online

Now I love playing console games just as much as the next person but i really really love playing online games. Facebooks really dose have some fun ones. King.com is good too. Do you know any online gameing sights???? ohhhh and PoGo too!!!

Religion

Now as many of my friends know i am wiccen. I was in pagan chat this morning, and a few things happened that I found interesting. First a guy claiming to me wiccen said i have respect for all people except for the ones that do not have the same beliefs as him and that those people should burn in the hell they believe in. What the hell???? Second like three Christians came in the room attempting to convert us. Yeah...like that's going to happen lol. So my question for you is this.... What is your religion and how do you feel about people that believe different things than you???

Working on a book

OK.... I am determined to write a book, and I have a few ideas. This is the one I'm working with the most, call it my baby. Its a tell all form the Devil herself (yes in my book the devil is a woman) now its not set to be "funny" purse, its set more as her telling the world what REALLY went down and how things have transpired form her point of view. What do you think???