Things that suck

You wanna know what really sucks? Being in a house full of happy (or at least relatively happy) people, and feeling like everything is just pointless. I wanna be a happy person, I really do, but it seems to me that every time I find someone or something that makes me happy I have to give it up or in the end its not what I thought it was. This is not be being "emo" and this sure as hell is not me having a pity party. This is me letting it all out. If I keep all of this sadness inside it will just fester like a wound. In the end I will die of sadness. I don't wanna die, least of all of depression. So you all should remember that, I don't wanna die. I do love being alive. Some times things are awesome and sometimes things are good. But most of the time its whatever. Oh well, C'est la vie!