Living with Tourette's

I have Tourette's Syndrome . That is a simple fact. What's not a simple thing is living with Tourette's. It made college life for me hard. I was afraid to set in a class room full of people. I have both and oral and a physical. The physical are not quite so bad sometimes, but the oral is ALWAYS bad, even when it's not. Nothing makes you feel like a fool quite like setting in the middle of a lit class and all of a sudden you go "UNNNHNNA" really loud, and than everyone looks at you like you are crazy and moves away from you. Though to make this a bit easier on myself, and so that my professors don't think I am trying to be disruptive, I have started telling them the first day of class that I have Tourette's.

I will say though, that having Tourette's is not all bad. My friends think my tics are funny. Yes, if people I don't know laugh at my Tourette's I feel upset or get pissed, but my friends, they make me feel like my Tourette's makes me special, and they show me why it's funny. Some times I make really funny sounds, like one time, I went "OMMMM NOMMMMM NOMMMM" and sometimes my physical tics make it look like I am dancing.

Well, that is the just of it. If you have any questions, ask me on my tumbler :)

Thoughts for the Weekend:Some People are Stupid

What gave birth to my "Thoughts for the Weekend" this weekend is the fact that I am not able to understand why girls like Rihanna would stay with or get back with or even just stay in contact with total JERKS like Chris Brown who beat the crap out of them, or cheat on them, or just treat them like crap.

Yes, like almost 1 in 3 women, I have been in an abusive relationship at one point in my life. What I have never understood, is not staying, I understood that because I stayed a LOT longer than I should have, No what I don't understand is going back. Once you get out of the abusive relationship why the HELL would you go back? This is why I think women are stupid.

Also, I cant quite grasp why you would want to stay with some one you don't love. Some one you seem to hate so much that you would physically or psychologically abuse them. Yes, as much as I hate to admit it, I did cheat on a boyfriend once, and as much as I feel the need to defend myself and explain why I would do it in the first place, it was still wrong. Once I also got so upset at another boyfriend that I slapped him. Yet unlike most people who hit someone they love, I did not say I was sorry and beg to be forgiven. I saw the fact that I had just done something that was, not only very wrong, but that was also totally unlike me. In seeing this, I ended the relationship. How could I be with someone that had caused me to respond to him in such as way?

I get it, you cant help who you love. What I don't understand is how you can love someone that keeps hurting you. Someone that only cares about you when it suits them. That to me is why some people are stupid.

Yes, I know this is one of my longer blogs, but I feel strongly about this topic, and I feel this will not be the last blog I do about abuse.

If you or someone you love is being abused, please visit this website, and seek help....Before its too late.