Thoughts for the Weekend:Some People are Stupid

What gave birth to my "Thoughts for the Weekend" this weekend is the fact that I am not able to understand why girls like Rihanna would stay with or get back with or even just stay in contact with total JERKS like Chris Brown who beat the crap out of them, or cheat on them, or just treat them like crap.

Yes, like almost 1 in 3 women, I have been in an abusive relationship at one point in my life. What I have never understood, is not staying, I understood that because I stayed a LOT longer than I should have, No what I don't understand is going back. Once you get out of the abusive relationship why the HELL would you go back? This is why I think women are stupid.

Also, I cant quite grasp why you would want to stay with some one you don't love. Some one you seem to hate so much that you would physically or psychologically abuse them. Yes, as much as I hate to admit it, I did cheat on a boyfriend once, and as much as I feel the need to defend myself and explain why I would do it in the first place, it was still wrong. Once I also got so upset at another boyfriend that I slapped him. Yet unlike most people who hit someone they love, I did not say I was sorry and beg to be forgiven. I saw the fact that I had just done something that was, not only very wrong, but that was also totally unlike me. In seeing this, I ended the relationship. How could I be with someone that had caused me to respond to him in such as way?

I get it, you cant help who you love. What I don't understand is how you can love someone that keeps hurting you. Someone that only cares about you when it suits them. That to me is why some people are stupid.

Yes, I know this is one of my longer blogs, but I feel strongly about this topic, and I feel this will not be the last blog I do about abuse.

If you or someone you love is being abused, please visit this website, and seek help....Before its too late.

WTF of the week: pop music.

If you know me, you know that I love music. I also have a wide range styles of music that I like, from Hollywood Undead to Lady Gaga to Hank Williams.

My issue as of late is the total and complete amount of insanity that has taken over the top 40 music. This all started with "Pumped Up Kicks" by Foster the People. Its super catchy and I just love it! My issue with the song? It is clearly about a kid killing other kids. The hell? Is that something we should be singing out loud as we drive to class or work? The second song that prove my point is "We Are Young" by Fun. I mean come its clearly talking about how he beat his lover. That is not cool. To top it off, they sang it on Glee. Don't think that I am a music Nazi. I'm not. I just have issues with songs that make mass-murder and spousal abuse an OK thing. What next? A song condoning animal abuse or rape? All set to a slow beat with a catchy hook? I really hope not.

Songs that touch my heart.

This is part of the song Black Dahlia by Hollywood Undead.

I wish I could have quit you

I wish I never missed you, and told you that I loved you every time I fucked you

The future that we both drew and all the shit that we've been through

Obsessed with the thought of you in pain just grew and grew

How could you do this to me

Look at what I made for you it never was enough and the world is what I gave you

I use to be love struck now I'm just fucked up

pull up my selves and see the pattern of my cuts

This song really speaks to me. I have been in love with someone that I was willing to do anything for, and it was driving me crazy I also have an issue with cutting.

found a poem

I was going through some of my notes and what not from my first samester, and I found a poem that I will now share with you.

I want to laugh,cry,scream.and just end it all. I don't ever wanna be apart, but just being near you is killing me. Sometimes I don't know what to do. Do I tell you again how I feel? Make you feel odd because you dont feel the same. Do I just let it go and be happy with what I have? I feel like I could be ok with what we have now. I just need to get in and saty in the mind set that this is not love. This is just tow people who care about each other the way all friends should.

Yep that's my poem, I know it does not rhyme, but it is a poem none the less.